With millions of words left unspoken…

….i’ll try to make you happy…

June 13, 2008 at 5:56 am (Uncategorized)

Okay, okay. i KNOW. im a terrible terrible person. i havent blogged in a while. Sorry to dissapoint my regulars.

Kinda a bitter sweet day today.
Parts of it good.
parts of it very dissapointing.

to start of my day…
i woke up at 11:00. which is totally a big deal, cuz since summer started, i stayed in bed till about 4. and i didnt today. i got up and watched Greek(loooooove that show so much) and talked to Justin(loooooooooove him so much-ha). then i went to the dentist. nothing too exciting there. i mean, its the dentist. im not gonna be like, “OMG! i had a life changing experiance today!”  and you arent gonna say, “oh ya, where?” me, “I WENT TO…..THE DENTIST”.
i dont know…dont ask. im wayy in a weird mood right now.lol. so after that, Anja came over. that was pretty cool. we just hung out && stuff. and Justin stopped by.( Have i ever said how much i adore him?! well i do.) that was interesting. lol. what else…

oh.
right.
im so pissed off about something right now. its hard to explain. but for girls camp, there are 5 years. year1, year2, year3, year4, YCL. well i have only gone once, since i was in florida visiting my dad for the other years. all the girls my age are 4th years. and i was gonna have to be a third. Cuz they counted last years trek for one year of girls camp. so i was soposed to be  a 3rd year. But they made an exception and said i could go as a fourth year, and just certify as both. so i was going to go backpacking on monday-tuesday. and i was sooooo excited. cuz i love camping and stuff, and ive never been backpacking. well my leader came to me today and told me that im going as a YCL. which means i dont get to certify as a 3rd or a 4th. im a leader. and i dont get to go backpacking. and i am really really upset. like, almost in tears-wow, thats dramatic. and pissed. GAH. whatever.

so yeah.i leave tomorrow for my engineering camp. it should be fun.

now for my daily dose on Justin:
i know it is probably really stupid of me to say, but i really can picture myself being with him in the future. like, honestly. and if i had one wish, id be that we stay together. i know i have said this over and over, but i have NEVER been so happy with anyone in my life. when im with him, i can not stop smiling, and sadly, i am always trying to not be happy. i have this weird…i dont know…phobia, maybe, that if i let myself be happy that i will get hurt worse… i dont know. But yeah, when im with him, i want the moment to never end. and whenever he says something sweet, it replays over and over in my head for hours, so i keep smiling. and when im not with him, i am either 1-thinking about him 2-talking about him or 3-wishing i was with him. He is hands down the best boyfriend i have ever had, and i hope there wont be one after him. Cuz i hope there is no ‘after him’. he is my best friend and the love of my life.

My best friend list:
1-Justin, of course.
2-April
3-Mandie
4-Anja
5-Dom
6-Conner
7-Ari and Star
8-Danielle
9-100,000,000……everyone else.
lol.
i love you all.

Song of the day:  Wraith Pinned to the Mist and Other Games  –Of Montreal

[i.l.y]

AubreySkye